"Don't go."

Kids can always make your heart break.  Even when they have no idea that they are doing it.

I'm sure this won't be the last time Bean says or does something that will break my heart but this one really got to me.

Monday morning as I am in the bathroom getting ready for work, Bean waddles in.   She had been in bed asleep.  I leave the bathroom door open in case she does wake up.  I can either hear her or she can come in to say good morning.

She had been in there with me for a few minutes when this heart wrenching conversation happened.  (You say that a 20 month-old can have heart wrenching conversations?  I say "just wait, you'll see".  )

Bean:  PawPaw?

Me:  PawPaw's at work, baby.

Bean:  Dada?

Me:  Dada's at work, too.  He's been there for a few hours now.  And Mommy's getting ready to go to work, too.

Bean:  "Don't go."  And then runs over and throws her arms around my knees.

CRACK!  Yep, that was the sound of my heart breaking.

I picked her up and kissed on her.  I told her I was sorry but I had to go to work.  I tried to keep the tears back but a couple of them slipped by.

It's days like this that I wished I could email in my resignation.